Since embarking on a career as a musical theater actor, I've been holding myself back because of my fear of dancing. When I go into dance class, I feel self-conscious not knowing the technique, not being able to retain the choreography, and feeling a bit like a dancing elephant from Fantasia.
I've written about repairing my relationship to dance before, and I'm still working on it. I came to a realization the other day -
Dancing is fun.
For years I've treated classes as medicine for my lack of skill. I signed up for a dance work study only to find that the classes left me feeling humiliated, and I couldn't keep up with my self-imposed four-class-a-week schedule. While in class, I'd intensely focus on retaining as much as possible so that I would "learn to dance" faster and be more proficient at dance calls.