Today I came across this e-card. A laugh escaped my throat as soon as I read it. It's especially brilliant because I've thought this exact thought recently. I specifically like this one because I'm finally at the age where most people thought I would outgrow this whole wanting to be an actress thing. Perhaps they assume I would have come to my senses and settled on a more stable job position by now.
In a really weird way, I think the timing is interesting because even if I wanted to "get a real job" a lot of those jobs aren't even open anyway. People with grad school degrees and actual corporate job experience are competing for those positions. In the meantime, I continue in my little routine I've carved out for myself and that works for me.
This desire for "success" is hard to judge in acting. Basically, if you're an actress and no one has ever heard of you then often it's greeted with scorn. If you don't really have it all figured out in college, it's okay because it's a social structure for people trying to figure out what they're supposed to do with your life.
However, after college you really have to work daily to make your purpose. I've been out of college for a year and one month now. Being in school and working towards a degree was an easy set up. All you really have to do is show up, do the work, and study from time to time. After school, you have to do a little more than show up and do the work. At first, I was surprised when that mentality didn't work for auditions. I had rushed through so much to graduate college by 20 that I figured my fast track would work for auditions too. I had rushed through school so quickly to graduate college by 20 that I figured my fast track would work for auditions too. I would just have to memorize the lines, extensively prepare, show up 5 minutes before my appointment time, and BOOM.
Think again!
It's all good, I've learned that it really does take a few times being knocked down to actually learn how to stand stronger. It's taking me longer than I expected of myself to "get my sh*t together" but I think it will be that much sweeter when I figure some things out later on.
I'll keep you posted, of course.
I'm standing by my mantra Don't Forget to Have Fun!
All the best,
Cassidy Gard
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