I'm in the middle of some of the busiest weeks I've had in the past several years. Day job work, plus acting work, plus working to get acting work equals one very exhausted Laura! Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy to have plenty of things going on... its just been one big flood all at once, and that can be overwhelming.
Last week, I had a meeting that I've been working towards for the past couple of months. There was quite a bit of pressure surrounding the whole thing, and a few hours before it was time for me to get there, I started feeling really nervous. In a way that I haven't been for a pretty long time.
It reminded me that, in a way, those butterflies were the reason I fell in love with acting. Putting myself out there in a way that was sometimes uncomfortable and scary made me feel accomplished and strong. When I remembered this, I felt relieved. It was sort of like my body, my nerves, were reminding me that I really do still love and care about acting.
Of course, I didn't really need that reminder--I already know that I love acting. But it felt good to think of why I started loving it, and to see that that initial spark is still there.
What reminds you of why you got into this crazy business?
Well, I'm off to another meeting now, and will hopefully follow that with a restful weekend! Hope you guys do the same.