The Subject Of Crying Part II

After what I considered a huge failure and beating myself up about it for a week, I made the rash decision to email the casting director and thank him for bringing me to the call back and said "it was nice working with you both". I made my peace with it. I got over it. I vented to a lot of my friends and basically blamed it on the chatty-cathy-actors in the waiting room for spoiling my lovely audition. Really, I was being over dramatic and I just couldn't get my body to relax and my mind to concentrate. Yes, it was definitely my fault.

A few hours later the casting director wrote me back and told me that they hadn't cast anyone yet, and they will let me know about "further development"….Further developments? I had never heard that before. What? That sounds like they are pushing it back or putting it on hold..but it did set my mind at ease when I realized I still have a shot!

Then…it came. The phone call from the casting director. "Out of 3000 submissions, you are one of the five girls we have narrowed it down to for a second call back." I was elated. I guess I had made some what of an impression on them. It blew my mind that so many people submitted for a low budget feature. Gosh, it's no wonder I rarely attain any auditions from Lacasting.

I had a week to prepare (sigh of relief) but I didn't have the material for another few days (what!).  Eagerly I awaited for my phone to do the "bleep!" email alert. And it finally arrived and guess what. Anothermonologue where I had to cry....

--Heather Tocquigny