Grad School Diary #8
I'm sitting at gate D4 waiting to board my flight to california. I'll be out in irvine by 9, and will hopefully be able to get some sleep tonight before my callback tomorrow. it's nice to have a little bit of a break right now, even if it is waiting in an airport. My week was pretty ridiculous. But pretty audition-sparse. I haven't been hearing from my commercial agents at all lately. I guess it's slow - usually I get at least an audition or two throughout the week, but not the past few weeks.
I've definitely lost a lot of momentum over the past few weeks. I've been working a lot, which is great for the cash, not so great for the art.
Now I'm flying from Irvine to San fran to catch a red eye to NYC. I've spent all day at Irvine - doing my monologues, singing my song, and learning more about their program.
Man oh man. I didn't actually ever think I'd really have to make a decision about grad school, I thought I'd just be able to apply and not get in, and then move to LA. One of the other actors there, who's my same type, and lives in LA, was commiserating with me a bit. I told him I was about to turn 29 next week - he told me about the NINE pilots they were casting in LA that were composed entirely of 30 year olds. That's the thing, I'm just coming out of the casting wasteland of my mid-twenties into the role-rich 30 year old world. BUT, would I get in for those? Would I get seen for any of those parts? Or would it be wiser to take the three years to hunker down, work on my craft, and trust that I'll come out the other end with killer training and a great agent.
Did I mention how great the program is? Oh, well… It's not a tear-you-apart-and-build-you-back-up program. It's all about what you already are, what makes you, you. It's about finding that friction or fluidity between who you are and who the character is.
It's also in california. Which is totally unfair. The sunshine. Totally. Un. Fair.
If I go to grad school it'd be there.
-- Shawn Dempewolff