Little Bits

Not a whole lot is new.  I booked and shot that online spot, am on track for my theatre gig in June/July in rural NY state, had another seminar the other evening, have been hitting the gym... and still neglecting my art studio.  I've been in a tough spot mentally, lately.  Feeling completely torn about many things: the usual how-the-hell-do-I-progress-to-legit-work conundrum, the how-the-hell-do-I-get-a-better-agent issue, the I-wish-I-didn't-have-a-day-job-because-all-my-friends-are-freelancing-or-doing-what-they-love-already-so-I-just-feel-like-a-loser situation, and the -I-never-go-to-my-studio-so-should-I-give-it-up-but-if-I-do-I-might-lose-an-opportunity-to-DO-something-else-with-my-life-and-maybe-even-one-day-be-able-to-ditch-the-day-job problem.

I went to bed last night thinking I'd get rid of the studio - save some money and just do what I can in my apartment.  Then, on my way to work on this glorious spring day, I realized how many of my friends would be taking it easy because they didn't have office's that needed them and so I thought I'd be crazy to give up my studio because, you know, one day I might be able to use it to support myself...

But of course it costs money which I could save and use to support myself...

But I'd still need some money coming in and maybe working on some art could help...

WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?  Will someone tell me?  I'm tired of being a big kid and having to come up with solutions for myself all the time.  Because no matter what I do, I feel like I make a bad/wrong choice.  Or... just fail. 

On another note - don't blink or you'll miss me:

Comments

[Justine]

Loved the Mom-a-thon commercial, Susan!

About your day job situation: I'm currently doing office work part-time, although wanting to get full-time, just to have more income. But a wise woman (and actor) that I know was advising me a couple of days ago on the value of *not* having the full-time day job. She does different "survival jobs" to make money and makes sure all of them are really flexible so they don't interfere with auditioning. I guess I gotta brainstorm about more things I could be doing to make money ("odd jobs" or my own business) that would keep me solvent without potentially getting in the way of acting work.

I don't know about your studio. Can you afford it right now, fairly easily? If so, then keep it. Or is it a regular monthly struggle to pay that upkeep? If so, sounds like you'd be better off getting rid of it.

[Stacey Jackson]

Sorry for the late response but wanted to say that the spot is HILARIOUS and that you are in it for way more than a blink, girl. :)

[susan]

Thanks. It was fun to shoot, too. Very simple and a good, relaxed crew.