Monday morning started out pretty dang shit-tay! Monday was cold and rainy and I had to get up early for a print job. No actor complains about going to work, but the weather was making the day seem heavy even after a full night of sleep. The pipes in my room even sputtered like the heat was trying to kick back in and I was walking around my apartment all bundled up trying to stay warm. I searched under my bed for my winter coat that I had foolishly stuffed away.
I packed a rolly suitcase full of clothes, and bundled up in my coat, and faced the elements, and walked to Chelsea Piers for the Nokia print job I had booked!! Yay!! I was super excited, but guess what? The pictures were supposed to be outside, and once we got on location everyone realized the weather was not going to cooperate. I was a little bummed. I had been practicing poses in my mirror all weekend in preparation! We had barely picked out what I was to wear when they called off the day. Boooo!!! Sure I still get paid, but I was all rained out!
The weather, along with e-mail fights with my mom and a good friend, were really putting a damper on my mood. I didn’t have any auditions, and I didn’t want to pace around my apartment anymore, so sometime on Wednesday, I forced myself out into the rain to my yoga classes. It’s a good thing I did because the yoga class had an important lesson for me: Everything is impermanent.
“If you love the pose you're in, enjoy it….because it will change,” Heather my yoga instructor said. “This stretch will only last so long, and we will move onto another one. Everything is impermanent, but that goes with bad things too. Does a pose hurt? Don’t worry, it will change and shift too. Soon we will be onto another. It is pointless to try make things stay the same. Nothing stays the same, and sometimes it’s sad if you are enjoying something, but it is also an opportunity for a good change. We have to accept that everything in life is impermanent and adjust when we need too.” I think Heather was also saying eventually my bad mood would change. Eventually it will stop raining, right? Even after three or four days of this wet weather?
“Mood, boyfriends, jobs are all impermanent,” Heather explained. Shit-tay weather must definitely be impermanent!!
Wednesday night I got a call that I was booked for another Nokia shoot the next day! As with any booking, my mood was beginning to lift. And sure enough, the weather (finally) changed and Thursday morning, the clouds were gone. The Nokia shoot included flying kites in Prospect Park with some other really cool actors! There were two big balloons to keep the kite afloat, but we still did a lot of running and jumping around! It was so fun!!
This morning I had a great audition for a play I absolutely love, and this weekend in NYC is supposed to be beautiful. I’m glad rain is impermanent, but I’m aware that the sunshine is impermanent too...so while we’ve got it, go out there and enjoy it ‘cause we don’t know how long it will last…
-- Emily Kinney