Okay--my personal "scramble" has begun. The next month is prep time for me. Money is in. As in, my mother and I took out a loan, jointly. (That's me & her in the pic to the left--my personal and financial Champion--every actor needs at least one!) Taken out, to help me FUND some things next year so I can focus on thriving instead of simply surviving. This will help give me a rent 'buffer' and put some money toward getting some good body shots done, get in a class again, and mostly have breathing room so I don't have a gigantic panic attack the last week of every month.
I didn't have good enough credit (read: divorce) to take out the loan myself. However, the way we've set it up, I'm already paying towards it every month--kinda like a small car payment--basically I'm buying my credit back, with interest--but at the end of next year I'll be in a better place financially and will be standing on my own two feet again. This gives me peace of mind so I can concentrate on attacking WITH FERVOR my professional "platter". Scoring myself a print-commercial agent is primary. Getting articles published. Power the Pilates schedule into a place where it's humming along nicely, while still allowing me time to get out--while being a mom too. I don't ask for much, huh? (smile)
Yesterday, I typed up a 2 page synopsis of my goals, my accomplishments, and the schedule I want as an instructor (that will reflect consistency & openness for my life as a mother an artist too--CURRENT & FUTURE). Why did I do this? Well--I went in and asked my employers for a raise. I want more. I asked for more than I thought I would get--but that's okay--I'll get there--in the long run. And I DID get a raise with the promise of more to come if I keep up my end! They also expressed interest in having me do some writing for them--and offered help in getting me connected with fitness magazines. Informing them of my interest and talent as a writer helps them and helps me...so branching out in that arena is on the brain. That will strengthen my portfolio & opportunities as a fitness model & writer as well.
(Me & my Cricket to the right.)
"The squeaky wheel gets the oil!" said one of my bosses. Well, you can call me 'Squeaker', in that case. I got some excellent feedback in ways to improve as a teacher too--which reflects in any professional arena and can be applied across the board. So, all good. I have never regretted Pilates as a day job--yes, sometimes it requires more attention than waitressing--but it creates IN ME a whole, healthy, and vibrant woman on the outside--which is simply a reflection of what I'm building on the inside. I believe that works for, not against.
One thing I did say goodbye to this year: theatre. Nope. No can do. For the next five years--my stage career is going in a box. That's one thing I can't juggle as a mother. I'm looking long-term and realizing this is a life I'm building here. I'm starting my third year here in Los Angeles and my short-term goals are commercial, with my long-term goals being theatrical (as in, independent film). All that being said, an open door is an open door--so sometimes you have to see what doors open. You can't plan everything--hell--sometimes I can't even get the dishes done...but you pick your battles.
My to-do list started out a mile long today, but I'm nearing the end of it and I'm not even huffing or puffing. Count the little victories. Oh--and I have an audition next week too...
"Every time life brings you to a crossroads from the tiniest to the most immense--go towards love--not away from fear." --from some random magazine...
Beach party this weekend too! I LOVE California!